lately i've been relating my life to a few songs in a way that i never have before, and i find it strange. of course, it probably happened to you too, at least once, since it is basically the whole point of music. but, listen to me. it's to a point where i almost feel like my life is a musical. i'm not crazy, i swear. i just happen to find those songs that i can relate to so well, i could stop talking and simply play songs. maybe it never happened to me before for the simple reason that i never really cared about the lyrics. i usually like a song for it's music, or the singer. everything is different now though, i'm becoming obsessed with lyrics. i want to find their meaning, i want to know what's really behind them, and i want to write my own. is it possible to develop a psychological dependency to words? i wonder.
i'm done school, and i'm so glad i am. this semester was terrible. i considered dropping out of school so many times over the past months, i'm just not interested anymore. i don't have the motivation to keep going. only one more semester, after christmas holidays, and then it's finally over. but not really? then i have to either go to university for another couple of years, or find myself a serious job. to be honest, i don't feel like i fit in any of those two categories. i just wanna be me, i just wanna do what i wanna do when i want to, i just wanna have my little projects and use all my time to work on them. isn't it what we all want though? maybe, maybe not. as much as i feel like we're all so different, i also feel like we're all the same. in the end, we all want the same thing, whether we admit it or not. and you wanna know how i've been enjoying my first few days of vacation? i did nothing. nothing. nothing! well, i have done a few things, but nothing too groundbreaking. i wake up, i shower, i eat, i read, i draw, i watch movies, i eat again, i watch tv shows, i stay up late and god knows why, and then finally i go to bed. the next day, it starts all over again. i'm not complaining, i love it. i'm starting to feel a little weird though, i haven't gone out of my house for three days, but hey, i need a break! you can't blame me. and as though i feel like i haven't been productive, i also feel like i've been the most productive i have been in forever. i've worked on impolite, i'm done painting/drawing/editing all the designs, and the clothes are now in production. i've been updating my websites. i've been socializing or whatever it is. i've read books i've been meaning to read for so long. i've watched movies i own on dvd and never even watched before. that's quite productive to me.
i should start going out a little bit though, after all, i've still got more than a month of vacation. and, my dad is sick, and i'm so scared to just be in the same house. being sick is the worst thing ever, and i don't wanna get sick too just because he is. i'm making sure i'm taking my c vitamins every morning.
i feel like this post doesn't mean anything, or doesn't make any sense, i will stop here.
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Firstly, thank you. This post was very heartfelt... more than just an update. :)
Also, about the lyrics, well thats about how my life is too. I don't want to talk half the time, just let the songs roll in my ears. Being lazy is a good thing, and honestly, i wish i could say i was being lazy too. Sadly I've been building a sculpture in the -20 degree weather. Procrastination NEVER pays off. >.<
I'm sure you will make the right decision. Enjoy your vacation alex.
I'll probably be doing the same thing over Christmas break. I can't drive and my mom worries about me so I don't go out unless it's with my family.
You Canada kids are so lucky. We still have another week before break.
Lovely photo, once again.
cheers,
gladys
" Alex i read your post ,i likeee
you have many fans in Brazil...what you talk for your fans;)?''
kisses and arma:)
i know what you mean about the lyrics. when i dont know how to say something i always turn to a song and it says exactly the right thing. and everybody needs a break sometimes. soo have fun being lazy for a while because you deserve it.
merry christmas
<3 mariah
one week?
mmaaaaan, we still got like a week and a half before break! I hate Ohio...
haha, srsly ive been waiting all day hoping you would update today alex and you did! *does dance* thats funny, cuz my friends all get really annoyed cuz sometimes ill go like days and just talk in lyrics. haha. youre not crazy. well, actually if you think about it everyone seems crazy to someone thats totally different from them, so maybe you are....
i feel the same about music :]
i liked reading that makes you more human i guess haha :]
doing nothing is good its fun too you run your own schedule haha
I probably have a psychological dependency on words too. XD
I try to find the meaning of every song that I hear. I'm probably obsessed by now too. Join the music-dependant-psycho-club. I've considered dropping out of school too.It's not really my thing, but maybe my dreams are a bit far away and if they don't work out I'll have my studies to depend on.
Finals are making me feel totally crabby so I haven't gone out of the house either. But it's true, drawing, reading, and watching tv are the things that make you feel more productive. (Even though they shouldn't)
Okay, I'm ranting now *sigh*
Sorry
I know exactly how you feel. My break doesnt start until next week and I'm SUPER excited, but i'm also a little sad that i won't be seeing my friends as much. and i have a huge project due right after break, our semester isnt over until january 28. lucky us right? hahahahaha.
I would say that you should come down to wisconsin and we could go and watch movies and whatnot but our weather is soooo bad right now. its raining and its supposed to drop almost fifty degrees in about a six hour period, so i might not even have school tomorrow *at least i hope i dont*.
and that post was actually quite meaningful. i liked it. if only people would read my blogs and stuff i would actually write them. *pokes livejournal*
This is one of my favorite posts that you have done.Well other than the video you posted(: I want to say this is touching?haha.No that sounds weird.But i hope your dad gets better. :/
I definitely know how you feel. I have recently become obsessed with lyrics tat have become my life lately. My dad is sick too. I hope that your dad feels better and hope that you have a great break.
I know exactly what you mean about the not feeling motivation to go to school or get a real job. I'm still stuck in that mode. I did the school thing to the end and thought I would know after that what to do... but sadly I still have no clue. I'm still so unsure and just want to do my own thing.
Days of laying around doing nothing can be the best of your life. I remember my week's vacation I spent in my apartment doing nothing, it was so relaxing and I felt happier and more productive than ever, at least creatively speaking.
I'm glad you're getting some much needed vacation time. For the cold thing, try airborne. I use that stuff when all of the assholes I work with get sick and most of the time it helps. I really loved this post. This is what I love about you. You are so real and I can read the things you write and feel like I could have written them.
Sometimes I feel like my life is a movie. Which just sounds weird but a lot of times that's how I try to relate to my life. The weirdest part is where sometimes I feel like in the story of my life I only have a supporting role. Talk about surreal.
Have a great rest of your vacation and take care! :) Good luck with the life plans. I hope you have more luck that me.
Honest to god, music does the same thing for me.
However it can be good and it can be bad. For example when im down i whole heartedly throw myself into music and avoid the issue but at the same time, relating to a song feels like you aren't the only one. This might sound weird but when im in the car i stare out the window and if i have a song on its like i think about parts of my life that have happened or may happen like a story playing out in my head?
that definitely had meaning. i'm glad i'm not alone. nice picture love.
can you tell us what songs you seem to relate to? lol.
haha i can defintely relate to the staying in the house thing for like 3 days and just like doing nothing. i was starting to think i was a bit of a weirdo just sitting around and not going out for a couple of days :] hah. interesting post alex.
i've just stopped sleeping because i'm not dreaming anymore. seriously. my life is a Jack's Mannequin song.
I think music opens up a whole new world for people. It helps me get through each day as well. I loved ur post, nice job.
Dam, luky...Ugg i have school still, I have to say that sometimes music isnt even enough..:P
btw i used one of ur latest pics as my header : http://thebetrayedone.blogspot.com/
hope u dont mind...:D
wow! for this WHOLE thing i can relate 2 EVERY word. :S
espacially not being able to fit into the two catagories. Life needs more options :S :[
This post was very real and genuine. :]
Well, i think that you're just tired of life, everybody needs a break, vacations... do nothing...
In fact do nothing is the thing i like the most... in a few days you'll be tired of be in home all the tima... but it's so cool to get in your bed knowing that you don't have to wake up for anything, any obligation... well i just enjoy that...
I'm in tests... and it's horrible because i MUST wake up in the mornings, if i don't i'd probably go to somethin like summer.school...
so... enjoy the nothing
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oh well it is in spanish...
nevermind
however not meaningful you think that was, you'd be wrong =]
and what do you think lyrics and musicals are based on?... real life events silly, its not unusual for people to relate to songs.
If you do try and write lyrics, good luck, its really hard for me but it comes naturally to some people, like my cousin.
Cute pic, for some reason it made me laugh... =] maybe its just because it looks like something a shy 5 year old would do =]
im in my senior year of high school and feel pretty much the same. I'm applying to 9 schools and only like 3 of them have the program I want. And of course they are impossibly hard schools to get into.
I just want to do what I want when I want. I want to be happy. I am sick and tired of waste time with trivial shit that irreverent to me.
I always do that with music. I always thought that the lyrics in a song meant more than anything else. Im still in that part in my life where i try to look for every possible song that can relate to my life :p
I love to write my own lyrics, when i have time. Its a lot of fun and a good way to get your feelings out, i suggest giving it a try, who knows maybe you'll like it?
it sounds like you have been very productive to me :]
anyway hope you have a good break :]]
strangely i feel very accomplished when i just sit around and watch an old untouched movie or something.
doing nothing is great! school is starting to feel distant to me.. you know.. like all the teachers and the school board and everything are really part of a brainwashing cult..
hahah and then once youre done there's work. i know what you mean! all of life all people do is work, if we could get paid for just being good at something we actually like doing, it'd be a wonderful world..
hahah if life were a musical i'd get really annoyed. but yeah, theres fifty million different ways to interpet certain lyrics and it's always nice finding it a way to thread it into your own situation. i just hate it when the artist or band gets interviewed or something and tells what they really mean and it's like the complete opposite of what you want or something.
hah sorry i just wrote you a novel. good luck with school + your projects and everything!
I find that in the end of everything, we always find a sonorous track in ours we life.google lost ways and words meaningless, but I am possible yes to write in song form our proper life! Alex that you have, a stuffed Christmas of peace, love, health and much joy, that in the year of 2009, its dreams are blessed and its success increases, always continues, what you, you are identic me, do not bind for what the others say:) thus you go great kisses far Amanda!
well, me too,
i want to be who i am
not being controlled by other people
i want to do what i want!!!!
lol actually this post sounds exactly like me and my life. I am in the same boat, with music, school, my art, everything. It made perfect sense i think.
i love relating lyrics to my life, or my life to the lyrics, whichever way you want to put it.
to me, i don't even care what genre it is. if the lyrics are heartfelt or geniune, i love it.
i really liked this entry, alex. :]]
i'm glad to hear you're having a good break so far.
hmm.
Although I cannot relate lyrics to my life, I can relate about the "life" situation.
It just sucks that it's an "either-or" choice.
either i go to a university or find a serious job.
It's a choice that is so trivial to many because not a lot of people want to make that choice.
If only there was an "easy" button in everyone's life.
But at least you have your clothing line to depend on. :)
wow this post is quite a long post :] and I love it.
About the lyrics, I think many people are feeling the same, including me. I don't really listen to the lyrics, but somehow I listen to it for some songs. And some of the lyrics relate to my life.
And your activities while holidays are like mine. Seriously. After I wake up, I shower then I eat. I watch tv, I read, I play Internet then I eat. I watch tv until like 2am then I sleep. Yes, I'm dead bored, but I have to admit thatbthose are the bet things to do :]
Song lyrics can be so fascinating, I agree. It's always interesting to find out the real meaning behind the words, you know? I completely know how you feel on that.
It's easy to say we all agree...that's what we look for, right--Understanding? College is the easy part...I just graduated. The part you don't expect is slipping into a post-school, pre-life limbo. You're not sure what you're going to do with yourself now and you wanna say "Well, damn." But don't worry, it will come to you. Everything will be okay...believe me.
I am looking forward to going back to school. Psychology. I find comfort in knowing others are far more messed up than I turned out to be, which is a shocker. Plus, I can't cope with dormancy, it's boring. I have too many things to do with myself than to sit around...I too draw, and have a clothing thing going on, and a novel....who knew? Luckily, I have that, my art.
I do that, to find the real meaning of the words, on books and poetries and sometimes in lyrics! And when I'm really really angry or sad, i just throw these feeling on the paper, and honestly, sometimes it works out! I've some lyrics here or poetries? Idk, i dont know anything bout music and how you do it! But if you wany i could send you some of them.
I'm on vacation too, until march and I havent gone out too for about a week, its so boring ewkkkwwwww. i have nothin to do NOTHING! i wanna travel but my family cant but they still arent on vacation. and i bought a video game, ive played like fours times and now it got boring and i dont wanna play it anymore geeeeez , i shouldn't have bought it damnn
and another geez on my life, i havent been talkin in english since ive got on vacation, my english sucks right now, i need an exchange program D: and it is so hot right now. So I think i'm going to buy some psychology books about Freud and his theorios about behavior. It is really interting to read about people's behavior, and we can see things in people that before we didn't realize how exciting!
ok i stop here. i think i nighy play some video games humm idk.
bye ^^
you're great! :)
this post make a sense! - trust me. you're totally describing my life. well, i'm not as old as you(i'm 14) but my family and my friends is already started to talk about the future, where i should go after school. i'm so sick of school, i hate it, and it makes me crazy just thinkin about that there is so many years back. you're lucky that you're finish. good luck with the heartbreaker clothing! i don't know what i want when i grow up. that's a problem though. but it's something with music or animals. that's for sure!
btw with the lyrics-thing, i do the same. and yesterday i read p!nk with sober, and she sang my life. some of it (:
sorry for my ugly english, i'm from denmark in europe.
alex u are very near by my caracter...i feel that i haven't been productive...and i'm so sick of learning 4 school ..i would like to work to be productive..but working just what i like and i think is 4 me...sometimes i don't see the sens of my life...when i see taht o must do a lot of thinks wich i don't like..and about your dad..i see u are not so worry about him just about u...i'm the same here..:)) speaking about my dad
first of all.. it´s VERY interesting to read what you have to say,so...it doesn´t matter how much you write...you can write a whole lyric if you want to:) I know..it´s so hard to make such a hard choice,like, make a choice now,or forever wish you had....mohahaha...( just imitating god...sry..) Í feel just the same about "the two categories".ok,I know..I´m not so old yet that I have to make that desicion,yet.but someday it´s my turn..but still,I have no idea what i want to do when I´m grown up..you know...It´s hard.. work, work..sry, lyrics you knwo...hehe.... ooops,so sry,this beacme more as an letter than a little comment,so sry about that...:/ hope your dad gets better..:)loove ya.. mez out,anna:)
hey , ii also wanna be who i am too ]:
andandd .. ii love music too .
My ipod is like my best of dhe best friend =x
hehe :] x3 AlexEvans :]
ooo ,, and .. ii feel dhe same way about sch as eu do ]:
x3 Alex Forever!
wait , sorry .
just wishing ur dad will feel better :]
don't worry Alex your post make sense...
à propos du décrochage scolaire, moi aussi j'ai souvent pensé à ceci, car ça fait 5 sessions que je suis à mon collège, car jai changé de programme maintenant je suis en health science mais si j'aurai pensé il y a deux ans de ça, soit en automne 2006 à choisir les sciences de la nature comme programme j'aurai présentement terminé ma première session à l'université (car n'oublie pas jai un an de plus que toi =P) Je suis découragée. mais bon! il ne faut pas lâcher prise dans la vie! -- voilà! je me suis confessée!! I feel better now=]
btw jai hâte de voir les nouveaux tees=] maintenant que jai la crédit card je peux buy via the net:)
and jattend IMPATIENEMENT(?) ton vidéo:)
I must say that there is nothing wrong with believing that your life could fit into a musical way. Many times, I have felt the same way. I before only paid attention to the beat of the music and went on about how 'hot' or 'talented' the musicians were. But, then I just started focusing on the lyrics and found that they truly had fit me.
School can be a tough task to go through, but in the end it is always worth it. I've wanted to drop out of High School so many times and just get my GED. But, I know that in today's society, you have to have a good education to get a well paying job. I do plan on going to college, but I just hope I have the strength to go through it all. We all loose a bit of motivation somewhere down the line, but then we'll come across some things that give it back to us.
I'm very sorry that your dad is sick, I do hope he gets better. There's nothing wrong with using a bit of your vacation days inside. You still do a bit of productive things, in my eyes anyway. Do whatever makes you happy and suits you best :)
Your post seems to make sense to me and a few others as well.
Well, I'll most likely stop by again sometime in the future :)
Laura Michele
this post makes perfect sense. i understand how you can relate your life to a musical, i always relate my life to movies, like seriously sometimes it just feels i'm the lead role and everyone around me is just the audience.
i personally think the lyrics to a song is the most important part, if a song doesn't have good lyrics i most likely won't ever listen to it again. I'm kind of surprised a guy like you just started paying more attention to song lyrics.
as far as the you not wanting to attend school and everything. i feel the same way, sometimes i wonder what it would be like if i just never went to school again and just lived my life in the moment, not on a schedule. if i could do whatever i wanted and lived my life for me, and not to just please everyone else.
believe it or not, alot of people like to read what you have to say. just remember when you post something and you think its complete nonsense, someone's reading it and it'll mean something to them.
Sometimes we ourselves can't descibe our life simply.
Sometimes how we feel can't be summed into a short paragraph.
I've found during these times, we just need lyrics to say it all for us.
Because music can be plain and easily understood, but it can also be deep and complicated.
When we are looking for deeper meanings in our perspective on life, lyrics can sometimes be viewed however you want to take them.
And then, at that moment, music seems to tell your life story, because of how you see it.
One song can be viewed a million different ways; it's amazing.
I believe I know how you feel :)
I love your website.
Your photography is wonderful. I also love photography, and plan on doing that as a living. Although, I'm only 14 so that plan could change.
As for your lyrics comment, I'm exactly like that. I choose my songs based on their lyrics. I can't stand to listen to a song that has pointless, heartless lyrics.
Thank you for this, most people don't seem to understand where I'm coming from when I try to explain it.
i can relate to you i understand what thats like
Don't worry, your not going crazy or anything, I always feel the same way.
:)
yea i kno. i did the same thing over the summer & when its all over im like OH CRAP! i should really do sumthin or get out of the house for once cuz summers almost over... but i didnt! just like a typical american rite? hahaha americans r lazy thats y there so much wrong with us, i dont mean that offensive to any1 who actually likes america but im american! so im just talkin about my self! hahaha. but i hope ur dad gets better just dont get near him, EVER. dont breathe the same air as him! EVER. yea thats possible! *sarcastic* haha just get out of ur house!!!!!!
I knw you might not even get to read this seeing as to how much people wrote before me. But i'd just like to say that life is a musical, and we are all actors in it. the only real thing is love and God. all else are just distractions. Or atleast that's what i and alot of other people believe. but its cool if you dnt believe in that kinda stuff.
Just wanted to shed some light
later
Whenever someone else in my house is sick I double or triple my Vitamin C intake. Airborne becomes my best friend.....
Alex i know what you mean. i love music for the lyrics and it's like i cant get enough. its like i want to know what the writer was feeling at that time and why they were. the whole story behind the song. my favorite song is jasey rae by all time low. the lyrics seem to fit my life perfectly. it's crazy.
well i hope your life is dandy like candy....even if you think its somewhat unproductive lol. :D
it's not crazy that music can relate to life ...
This is one of the most insightful things I've read in a long time. And it's just a blog post...
I've reached the point in my life where everything seems to relate to a song to me. Sometimes, I just get out my guitar and start writing music. I'll turn on the radio and listen to anything, just listening to what the lyrics say.
And most of the time nowadays, I feel like quitting school. I just hate the routine of home/school/homework/back to school. It's so simple, but so binding. I just want to travel the world, do the things I want just because I want to do them. But I guess I'm learning that life can't be exactly what I want it to be. That's sad, for so many reasons.
we sound alike. neither of us want to conform to society... we just want to live. at least I do. haha we would totally be rocking it in the Renaissance age. just kickin it with the philosophers/artists and what not. that would be sweet to me :)
or hippies. whatever floats your boat.
... vais faire différent des autres... vais dire comme toi, c'est vraiment n'importe quoi ce que tu écris... lol... never mind... (vais faire dodo) cya!
hello alex happy new year
interesting, got me thinking...
everyone is right. songs can be very helpfull when in a hard situation. alex, i really think you should relax and enjoy your vacation youve been working your butt off! sit back and relax. lay around. and know every whos ever heard of you is inspired and loves you. you rock dear.
have a nice vacation
Hi there! I totally understand what you mean with the lyrics, and about the 'doing nothing and not leaving the house'. Sometimes the best thing a person can do for themself is just catch up to the things they're missing out on normally. I personally can't think of a better past time than just getting a day to read a good book or write something good-- whatever happens to be the case. Enjoy your holiday and have fun with the little things that make up a day. =D
alex evans,
you're really great with words. i feel the same way, actually. becoming obsessive over the lyrics of many songs. finding their meaning, once i listen to it. it may just be a catchy tune, but then i listen to the words. their meaning of it. it all makes sense && i wonder about it, a lot.
i like your thoughts, it's great to see what's inside your mind.
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